For When Life Is Just Too Much To Handle

God is testing me

Every ounce of my body aches
The pain in my veins
Anger flowing with in
Loveless flowers graze my skin
I have no memories
No just dreams of better days

Wish I had some one r
To talk to vent to or anything
What do you do when you one friend is the one who you want to vent about
Its a party and
I’ve never felt so alone

When I cry tears of blood then will you love me

So sick of the drama so so

My world keeps spinning
Good goes bad
Everything I touch
Wilts in my hands
I’ve destroyed everything
I hold dear
and
Left with nothing
bonds broken
Ties cut
Any restraint
Was removed
With all this freedom
Is it wrong
To want everything you once had

I know we care
And our frustrations with each other run deep why is it
We can’t just enjoy what we have why must there always be a wanting
Missing
Drive
To
move forward
Backwards
Or away…
But once your there you
wonder if that’s what you wanted
Never content

Been lost for awhile
It seems like years
there’s a spark here in the darkness
A little floating speck that
illuminates just enough
That you have to squint
For you to make out to outline
of your hand
there is a warmth that is surrounding me
and I can feel it begin to melt my icy soul
Melting it kinda a soothing feeling wouldn’t you say

Too soon to tell
too deep to back out
Head is screaming
Pressure building
Hearts guarded
Paths entangled
This mixture we’ve formed
Is it real
possibly
Scared
I know
I don’t want to slow down
I know
I don’t want to
Hurt anyone
I worry to much
Make things simple
Complicated
I need to relax
he makes me happy
He’s my best friend
I trust him
Don’t get too far ahead dear little princess

brightlightsloudnoises:

maybe one day i’ll catch you
between
lovers
with
your famous smile
and a bottle
between us
and
catch
the moment
we lost years ago

maybe the sun won’t
go all the way
down
and we can sit
forever,
suspended between
today
and
tomorrow

Pass school
Do my homework
Cook my way through a cookbook
Move to lake Tahoe
have horses
Grow my own food

My heart burns with a fire
So intense
It’s a wildfire
Spreading through my veins
Through every organ
The pain form inside is in bearable
Has me crouched on the floor
Nails scraping at my skin trying to reach the source
Deeper and deeper I go but not quite able to reach
It
I can’t extinguish the flame
Nothing left to do but sit here
In agony waiting for the fire to burn out

Feels. Like the light is slipping away

STOP SCROLLING.

I love you and I hope your day is going well.

OKAY. CONTINUE.

This is the day I realized ignorance exists
People in the world truly curule I never realized someone so close to me such as a best friend would say things that you just said
Homosexual people should get the same rights as everyone else how can you say that two gay man shouldn’t be able to adopt a child for the child’s well being I’ll tell you what I guarantee you that two gay men who will fight and work hard to adopt a child will love that child more that many parents who exist. I love my family just the way it is and I wouldn’t change a thing I know sometimes things are complicated but I am loved so unconditionally by my family. And for someone stereotyping that they don’t want there child’s teachers to be gay because of child molestors that is rediculas there are sick people out there in the would whether they are female or males and there sexual preference shouldn’t affect there capabilities to do a job. People need to stop being so fucking judgmental and closed minded I’m seriously feeling sick to my stomach over this

Pieces of glass laying on the floor
Trying to avoid them but
One false move sends pain shooting up your spin
Tell the truth
And you get burned
Try to smile and live life free
End on naked begging on your knees
How did I get here why
This wasn’t supposed to be
This wasn’t supposed to happen it like trying to put the broken pieces of the mirror back together and not cutting yourself

Don’t walk away from me as I’m standing here trying
You tell me everything I want to hear
But there’s No truth in anything
The lies your vomiting
Can’t be taken back
The blood stained floor is what remains
The mop and bucket you gave me just spreads it around never fully erasing all the mistakes you made
Trying hard to forgive and forget but the scars are constant reminders of everything you’ve done
And everything you owe

When you wonder if he’s thinking about you too?

That moment when you feel completely alone and your not sure how to feel about it